Monday, July 2, 2012

Chapter 13

It was baba!:D


Jude: yubaa!!!:D

i went and huged him tightly, walla i do really miss him:'(

Jude: 7amdella 3al salama yuba!! laish ma geltly inik betyeey?

dad: kent basaweeha mofaj2a lkum..

My dad and his suprises are endless:p

I couldnt stop hugging my dad, jad i missed him so much. Not seeing him for a 3 weeks is too much.. :(

My dad turned and looked at 7amany in surprise..

Dad: abdulra7man?! shlonik? mageltly inik yay el kuwait?;o

Wait! shlon my dad recognized 7amany.. ahh 9a7 i remembered,, everyone remembered him except for me of course:)

7amany: 7amdella tamam 3ame! walla tawna yayeen ikuwait w gelna ina bensaweeha mofaja2a..

Dad: Eee 7mdllah 3al salama..:)

7amany: allah ysalmk :)

Dad: yalla akhalekum tkamlun suwalif.. ana mashii

Jude: wain yuba?!:(

Dad: ray7 afaj2 elbaji ;p

Jude: hahaha inzain ;p

****

My dad left and i was left alone with 7amany...

It was so awkward sitting with 7amany and just looking at the ground.
So i decided to end the silence....

Jude: ha? wain ely beroo7 el 7amam? ( i started teasing him:p)

7amany looked at me and laughed, and before i knew it, i was seated in the 9ala with 7amany away from the family.

we kept silent for a couple of seconds then 7amany started talking..


7amany: Walla walaht 3ala 3amyy..

Jude: Ahahaa..

Few seconds of silence.. so i decided to break it..

Jude: emm.... 7amany ma gltly obuk laish ma ya elyoum?

7amany kept silent and looked at the ground....
He looked really sad, and i felt my insides fill with guilt, my face turned into a guilty expression..
I knew that i shouldnt ask that...
9ij eny afashel x_x

Jude: itha its too personal mu ila itjawb..... emm ana asfa..

I stood up and gave him my back. I slowly walked away back to the table where everyone was seated
But before i did 7amany grabbed my arm gently


7amany:  Umm.. laa jude 3ady..

i turned around and faced him.. he didnt let go of my arm
I looked at him, i couldn't take my eyes off of from him.. he had such beautiful eyes

He sat on the ground, his back on the wall, and tapped the floor.. gesturing me to sit next to him.. I did as told and took my seat on the floor next to him.. his eyes didn't meet mine the whole time.. his eyes looked  straight ahead...

7amany: ubuy....

He kept quiet
i knew that he was hurt. Something happened to his dad but he couldnt say it..

7amany: ubuy...allah yer7emma...tewafa

He said it in a really sad tone.
i felt really sad of what happened.
The guilt started to fill my insides once again :(

I shouldnt ask him this question, i knew that it was too personal. La2ana asking someone who lost a very important person in their life is really hurtful. Next time i should find it out on my own...

Jude: asfa...

I looked at the ground with a dispointed expression. I wanted to let him know that im really sorry that i've asked. I didnt know that it had hurt him so much. Maybe because his dad had just passed away a few weeks or months ago? Thats why he and his family came back to kuwait?

Jude: im really sorry iny sa2alt...allah yer7ama w ya'3ferallah w yad5ella janat el na3eem.

7amany: ameen....la 3ade, entay taben et3arfeen fa al7een ana bagoolich

He took a deep breath and continued talking.

7amany: uboy allah yer7ema died gabel 2 weeks...

He avoided any eye contact..

7amany: mat min 7adeth. allah yer7ema. ga3ad fil mostashfa for one month or so because he had a heart problem after the accident.

I could feel how sad he was....

7amany: kan ubuy kelshay blnesba lyy. kan methel reffeejy.. okhoy.. everything. he taught me how to be a man and how to face others. He made me the man i am today. He was so kind; never treated others badly w wela mara fawat 9alata. wela mara eb 7ayata zafnee aw 6agne haman law asawe a5yas el ashya2 kan yen9a7nee w yad3lee lil hidaya.. when he died i felt so miserable and i didnt know what to do next in my life. I dont want zayoon to grow up without a dad by her side... :( it really hurts letting zayoon believe that my dad had died, instead we told her that he traveled. Thats why i want to be the best brother zayoon could ever have.

He took a deep breath again and continued..

7amany: my dad is my inspiration, he's who i look up to.. and who i want my son to be like...

7amany stayed silent for more than 2 minutes
he didnt say a word..

7amany just smiled and looked away, trying to put on a fake smile.

7amany: yalla jude 5anroo7 nakel, sa7abna fehum:p ( he tried changing the subject )

I was very hesitant of doing what i was about to do but i did itt.. i put my hand on his back

I couldnt see 7amany was sad. I wanted to tell him anything 3shan ma yez3al, because if i was in his place i needed someone to help me too. I cant see him sad...

Jude: 7amany.. emm el9ara7a madrii shagulk.. allah yr7ma inshallah w ya'3frlah w zayoon ma7thootha ina 3ndha okho mthlk,, w tara oboy e3tbra obok.. ohw mthl ma y7bny, y7bk... w

He interrupted me mid sentence..

7amany: Jude.. mashkoora inich ur helping me, that is the least i can do.

Jude: la el 3afo eshda3wa, im always here to help you.

7amany: matga9ren, yalla engoom 3shan el akel:p

Jude: ambay et9adeg nesayt:p

7amany didnt do anything but giggle.
He stood up and led the way.

****

mother: wa2a5eran 5ala9taw! kl hatha 7amam

my mother started teasing us..

om 7amany: zain sharaftaw, chan al7een nesaynakum

me and 7amany didnt reply we just giggled and sat in the chairs.

i loved 7amany's family, they are so sweet and kind. i felt like they were my family too.

I didnt feel like eating.. bs i ate a salad w poured some water to drink..

I couldnt stop thinking how honest 7amany is with me. I felt like he was my friend that i knew my whole life! 9ij ena we were best friends when we were kids but i couldnt remember anything. 7amany is a really strong guy, i can sense it. He didnt stop his life, instead he moved on keeping in mind that one day he will be like his father. 7amany is a strong man in every person's eye of what he has been through, its a lot and he waited patiently for things to get better. He wanted to take care of zayoon and thats really sweet of him. A guy in his age rarely do that. I felt like i knew him all my life...








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